The kids looked forward to them like they were more special
than Christmas Day, and in all the years we lived in Seattle it seems like we
never had more than one or two, but snow days are snow days, eagerly watched
for the night before, groaned over when the night’s accumulation only yielded a
late start at school. The snow day is not loved by adults, certainly not by anyone
who must get to work and can’t just phone it in.
Snow days for some adults
are like fretful days spent at home when a child is sick and a sitter can’t be
found. Snow days are when the office building is being fumigated for rats, or when
there’s an acquisition rumor, or the boss quits abruptly, or the project is
cancelled, but, in any case, all the meetings are rescheduled and no one is
getting anything done. Snow days are the whole day taken off work for a teacher
conference that lasted twenty unproductive minutes and won’t lead to the kid
being one bit happier or more adjusted to the school.
Some people seem to know just what to do on a grown-up snow
day. They hit the gym, or the spa, or do some sort of whiskey tasting or a
day-long iPhone photography seminar. Or, they get new tires, or clean out the
garage, or completely reorganize their sewing room, with enough time leftover
to can a dozen jars of bourbon roasted-cranberry relish. Some people live like
they’re waiting for a snow day, and they know just how they’ll spend it.
Before it began snowing in earnest (we were awaiting Juno),
I took the dogs out for the counterclockwise tour of the property. There was
thick ice under the current top layer of snow, and the top layer wasn’t quite
deep enough for snowshoes, so I went out in snow boots and took a pole. The
dogs went fast; they just don’t mind as much as I do the scrambling and
slipping. I fell on my ass, once.
We came upon a dead fox that made me sad. Who kills a fox? A
bobcat? Bear? Coyotes? Old age? Lover’s quarrel? Turf war? Was it poisoned by
neighbors? Should I freeze it and take it to the vet for an autopsy? We’ve been
watching a fox all year. We could see it hunting along the bushes. Crouching,
pouncing. The cat liked to watch it. The dogs hated the fox, and barked their
angriest intruder alerts when it trotted across the upper field in the late
morning sunshine. Was this that fox?
By the morning the storm had come, and we’d been promised as
much as two feet of snow. I awoke to the bright whiteness of daylight without
sunshine. The snow was falling, hard, but the flakes were tiny, light, and seemed
determined to stay in the air and never land. Outside the windows facing east
and west the snow flew by, horizontally, soundless. It gave me the impression
of motion, the way that snow would look from a speeding car. Except we were in
the house, and the house wasn’t whizzing along at 26 mph. The dissonance, the
mismatch of perceived motion to sensed stillness made me feel a little sick.
Later that day, we timed our walk to catch the end of the
day and the falling snow. The young dog took off at a run while I struggled
with the straps. I enjoy everything about snowshoeing except putting them on;
I’m beginning to think I should strap my snow boots into them and leave them
strapped in. Out on the property, I have to walk behind my husband, and he is
faster and fitter and has longer legs. The old dog will follow closely behind
me in the snow if I’m alone, but with my husband here she fills the space
between us.
Towards the end of my parents’ marriage they took a last trip
to Europe. My mother came back with a week’s worth of Kodak Ektachrome slides
mostly featuring my father from about 30 feet behind; she couldn’t keep up and
he wouldn’t wait. In a few years, my father moved on to a new career, and a new
wife and kid. My mother moved on to a new career, and a new husband and
step-kids. While I follow my husband I wonder what he is moving on to. I stop
him and ask him to slow down. He is happy to. The dog gallops off to join the
other dog.
We passed the dead fox. It was a simple lump, covered
completely in snow. The dogs quietly sniffed it again, and moved on.
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